cause either one or ten people out of the 25..
will say something so stupid, that it ruins my whole
self esteem and heart. i would love to spend time with them
more, but i hate having that fear of them hurting me
with their unfiltered words and actions.
i forgive them, cause i know they don't see what i see.
i am just a human here on earth, nothing more
nothing less....i'm just here to love and bring forth what is good?
i do care to extent of what they all think. but i love being me.
i don't want to push away those i love, but it's hard
when they give me no choice..even my friends.
things are just so different for me right now.
i see things a little bit different from the church's and structure
of what everyone loves and knows.
i don't care about the outer appearance
nor who you know, or what you fucking experienced.
i care about you.
i changed into a dress
after they made fun of me.
for wearing my slacks and dress shirt.
i left my slacks and dress shirt on the floor.
everyone and their preconceived notions.
they always feel bad, but i don't care anymore.
turn your other cheek, i guess huh.
i still love, i'm just not as quick to forgive anymore.
everything takes time.
please help me.