Saturday, September 27, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
maybe i don't come out my room on sunday night dinners,
cause either one or ten people out of the 25..
will say something so stupid, that it ruins my whole
self esteem and heart. i would love to spend time with them
more, but i hate having that fear of them hurting me
with their unfiltered words and actions.
i forgive them, cause i know they don't see what i see.
i am just a human here on earth, nothing more
nothing less....i'm just here to love and bring forth what is good?
i do care to extent of what they all think. but i love being me.
i don't want to push away those i love, but it's hard
when they give me no choice..even my friends.
things are just so different for me right now.
i see things a little bit different from the church's and structure
of what everyone loves and knows.
i don't care about the outer appearance
nor who you know, or what you fucking experienced.
i care about you.
i changed into a dress
after they made fun of me.
for wearing my slacks and dress shirt.
i left my slacks and dress shirt on the floor.
everyone and their preconceived notions.
they always feel bad, but i don't care anymore.
turn your other cheek, i guess huh.
i still love, i'm just not as quick to forgive anymore.
everything takes time.
please help me.